Graphophobia

I have a phobia about writing. I am attempting to overcome this phobia by writing something on this blog every day, unfettered by any consideration of its readiness for public consumption.

When I was young, writing was fun. Something changed in college. Although I was fairly good at writing papers, it was almost impossible for me to get started, until the deadline was upon me. This self-handicapping will be familiar to other procrastinators and perfectionists. It relieves anxiety by making it impossible to produce one's best work, providing a ready excuse for falling short of perfection.

This has been a very costly affliction. Now middle aged, I feel as though I've lived my life in partial exile. It would have been better to make this attempt earlier. I will have to accept that.